The college search has been a real struggle for me. I do not like to make decisions; it is a fatal flaw. When senior year began and I realized that I had absolutely no idea where I would be in a year's time, panic mode began to set in -- so naturally, I researched every college in Kentucky and all bordering states. ("Wow, Haleigh! That was a funny joke." No. Seriously.) I went through a phase in which I would spend hours and hours on a single college's website, overwhelmed by the endless possibilities ahead. I quickly settled upon two facts: I wanted to go far away to a place in which no one knew me, and I would go to a Christian college. As I began to narrow down my choices, I ultimately had my heart set on Lindsey Wilson. It seemed like a really great fit for me -- and after learning at a college fair that I could get a scholarship covering full tuition, I was convinced it was the place for me. I had this idea in my mind that I needed to go to a Christian college to grow in my faith, with a very small number of students so that I wouldn't be too overwhelmed. By the time I finally went on a campus tour, I already had it in my mind that I would be attending LWC the following year -- not even because I wanted to all that much anymore, only because I had told everyone I knew that I wanted to attend LWC. After changing my mind repeatedly about my future, I wanted so badly to make a decision. I let this desire affect me so intensely that I wasted months and months with the mindset that I'd be going. In reality, when I visited the campus, all I felt was a vague emptiness. I felt no connection to the campus and was very underwhelmed with what it had to offer. The excitement I had once felt when thinking about college life was replaced with a sense of loneliness and anxiety. As time went on, I was becoming less certain of my decision. While I was not looking forward to telling everyone in my life that I had changed my mind yet again, I was finally excited about something again: the prospect of attending Morehead State University.
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AuthorLet's face it: high school is both good and bad. I choose to focus on the good, generally. I'll choose to do the same here. |